Chapter 34: Fair provision for the needs of all

This principle from Scripture should be established in the monastery, namely that distribution was made to each in accordance with their needs. This, however, should not be taken to mean that favouritism of individuals can be tolerated; far from it. It should simply be a way of showing proper consideration for needs arising from individual weakness. (From Ch. 34 of Saint Benedict's Rule, trans. by Patrick Barry, OSB, 1997.)

This morning, this passage from the Rule reads to me as an enlightenment about what I've "received" in life, including opportunities, and missed opportunities, and the whole chain of events that has brought me to where I am today -- personal weaknesses included. Tempted sometimes by regret or the imaginative distraction of "rearranging" my earlier life, I come fairly quickly to realize that whatever I've received is exactly what I've needed to grow towards life in Christ. Meditation, I think, has reduced the time it takes me to go from self-absorbed melancholy to a vibrant awareness of the mystery of divine energy that beats in my heart.

Chapter 33: Personal possessions in the monastery

Following the practice of the early church described in Acts, everything in the monastery should be held in common and no one should think of claiming personal ownership of anything. (From Ch. 33 of Saint Benedict's Rule, trans. by Patrick Barry, OSB, 1997.)

This is a very difficult sentence, a very difficult teaching, for me to grasp. Coming after chapters about the care of common items, and, in this chapter, mentioning things as dear to me as books and writing materials, I'm at a loss to know how to begin to practice it. Except I know that in meditation I own nothing, and that the meditation isn't even "mine". I'm simply opening myself to the grace of entering into the prayer of Jesus. So, entering into grace may be the way I need to see my life today.

Chapter 32: The tools and property of the monastery

The superior should keep a list with the details of what has been issued to them so that, when one member of the community succeeds another in any responsibility, there may be no doubt about what items have been entrusted to each individual and what they have returned at the end. (From para. 1 of Ch. 32 of Saint Benedict's Rule, trans. by Patrick Barry, OSB, 1997.)

St. Benedict's instructions on how to treat monastery property blend an understanding of the interdependence of community along with good administration. But over all, as he reminds me in Chapter 31, there's a mystical vision: "All the utensils of the monastery and in fact everything that belongs to the monastery should be cared for as though they were the sacred vessels of the altar." It seems to me that it's the mystical vision that should inform all my efforts at sharing with others, and keeping track of things.

Chapter 31: The qualities required by the cellarer (paragraphs 2-3)

There will, of course, be appropriate times for the cellarer to hand out what is needed and for requests for goods or services to be made; these times should be observed by all so that failure to respect them may not cause any disturbance or unhappiness in the house of God. (From para. 3 of Ch. 31 of Saint Benedict's Rule, trans. by Patrick Barry, OSB, 1997.)

For me, discerning the right time and place, the best way to relate, all flow from the loving kindness that is both the best preparation for, and fruit of meditation. I sense that this discernment is a gift of the Spirit, and not the result of self-consciousness, or self-analysis. I grow to see that every little thing can be done, every moment can be lived, some way can be found, to relate with loving kindness.

Chapter 30: The correction of young children

There is a proper way of dealing with every age and every degree of understanding, and we should find the right way of dealing with the young. (From Ch. 30 of Saint Benedict's Rule, trans. by Patrick Barry OSB, 1997.)

St. Benedict's word this morning resounds in me with the power of command: Not to approach anyone from my ego, with a desire to control, but to approach everyone from my heart, with a desire to love.

Chapter 29: The readmission of any who leave the monastery

Anyone who is guilty of serious wrong by the personal decision to leave the monastery but then asks to be received back again must first of all promise full reparation for leaving the monastery.(From Ch. 29 of Saint Benedict's Rule, trans. by Patrick Barry OSB, 1997.)

St. Benedict's requirement that I make reparations for my false starts, my failings, my comings and goings, reminds me that my behavior has repercussions on others. This interconnectedness can make me feel overwhelmed at times. But it also urges me to rest in God.

Chapter 28: The treatment of those who relapse

If even such prayer does not bring healing, the superior must turn to the knife of amputation, following the guidance of St Paul, who told the Corinthians to banish the evil from their midst, and again he said: if the unfaithful one wishes to go, let him go, lest one diseased sheep corrupt the whole flock. (From Ch. 28 of Saint Benedict's Rule, trans. by Patrick Barry OSB, 1997.)

I think it takes discernment, not borne of attention to my ego, but to divine presence, to know when to accept difficult relationships, and when to let them go. My ego can stir up very mixed motives, and make situations worse. But God calls me to hold true to the way of growth that springs from my rootedness and trust in him.